my irrational fears

So I don’t know exactly what’s bringing this post about, because it’s an awfully strange one. I suppose I’m so delirious from lack of sleep (not by choice) that I find it necessary to share some of my irrational fears. My anxiety about certain things almost rivals Aunt Josephine’s!

Without further ado, they are:

1.) San Francisco falling off into the ocean during an earthquake. I want to live there, so you can imagine why this might be a problem.

2.) Unpeeled peaches. The FUZZ, specifically. Thinking about it at all makes me twitchy, and thinking about biting into it gives me a headache!

3.) Facial hair. Especially the stupid peach fuzz some boys get before it gets all bristly. Unacceptable.

4.) Developing schizophrenia. For health class we had to do a project on a mental disorder and I chose paranoid schizophrenia. While I was researching, I was thinking, “Oh damn it. I have some of these symptoms already. So when I go off to college, I’m going to have some sort of crisis and snap! And bam, I’ll be schizophrenic.”

5.) Clogging other people’s toilets. Not that it’s ever happened, but I just think it would be so embarrassing if it did.

6.) Infinity. I looked this up actually and it’s called apeirophobia. My brain just can’t handle the concept.

Now that I’ve made myself seem like enough of a freak, tell me your irrational fears!

let's colour project

"Mere color, unspoiled by meaning, and unallied with definite form, can speak to the soul in a thousand different ways."
- Oscar Wilde

I’m alive!

HI GUYS! I am so sorry for the super long blogging break (I actually didn't realize how long I'd been gone until I looked at my blog this morning and saw that the last entry was April 10. Oops.)! And the reason for my disappearing for so long is this: Around the time I stopped posting I was studying like crazy for my AP exam, so I didn't have much free time. Then after the test was over, I just wasn't feeling like blogging much, so I didn't. I was trying to actually live my life rather than living others' through my computer screen. And it was successful, I must say, but I did start missing blogging terribly! So now I'm back, with a plan to still let my creative side show with this blog, but to balance it with you know, real life. School is winding down (I'm done June 15) so I'll have lots of energy to post!

I've done a lot since I've been away:

1.)Baked cupcakes as well as other ambitious things like lemon soufflés

2.) Danced my heart out in my ballet recital

3.) Had some very deep discussions

4.) Folded many paper cranes

I'm sure I'm forgetting a bunch of things but my point is, life is good! I want to give a big thank you to everyone who started following my blog while I was away.. you guys are super awesome for still liking my blog even though it seemed like I was never going to post again!

Hope you're all having wonderful weekends; I'm going to a picnic at my ballet teacher's house. Hooray for cucumber sandwiches!

I'm Dowd, Elwood P.

Last night I watched the movie Harvey with my mom. It's a Jimmy Stewart comedy about a man, Elwood, whose friend is Harvey, a six-foot-tall white rabbit. Except only Elwood can see Harvey, which makes his sister, Veta, and niece's plans of having social lives impossible. So, they try to put him in an institution but Veta gets checked in instead!
The idea sounds a bit strange, but I found it so charming. The moral of the story is basically that because Elwood is so genuinely sweet and sincere, all he does is spread happiness to everyone he meets so it doesn't matter that he's not exactly "normal". Just watch it, I promise you'll fall in love. It's so refreshing to watch old movies that, compared to today's, are so immaculately written and thought-provoking. The feeling you get when you watch them just can't be recreated anymore.

letters to dead people.

From this Tumblr.









Some serious, some funny, but all things I would like to say myself. Check out more here!

a very cute childrens magazine

Happy weekend! I'm officially on my spring break so I now have lots of time to be lazy and do things such as find Papier Mache magazine.











This magazine makes me wish I were five years old again. The other day I was in my ballet studio, helping the youngest class try on their costumes (they're little sunflowers!). While I was marveling over how tiny and adorable they are, I realized that that's how I looked just 10 years ago. And then sometimes, I do the reverse thing and think about how 10 years in the future, I'll be 25! Out of my house, out of college! It makes me really scared. Time is flying by so fast.

spring has sprung!

I think I already mentioned on here that I don’t like New Year’s resolutions, and that’s partly because when it’s so cold, dreary, and gray outside, I find it really hard to be hopeful. But spring on the other hand is a time for change and renewal, when all the pretty colors start to show again and the sun stays out for longer. So I thought it would be a nice idea to use my positive energy to make some spring goals. Nothing huge or life changing, but things I can realistically accomplish that will make me feel better about myself. So they are:

1.) Write some letters to far away places
2.) Have a successful garden (yesterday we planted swiss chard and peas!).
3.) Wear a lot of sundresses.
4.) Run at least three times a week.
5.) Take the metro to D.C. without my parents.
6.) Bake macaroons.
7.) Read at least 2 books per month.
8.) Open an Etsy shop.
9.) Go vegan for a day, or maybe a week.
10.) Improve my Spanish accent.
11.) Get a haircut. And not the "just a trim" type.

Do you have any spring goals you'd like to share?