infinity and beyond.

Yesterday I ended up going to school because I honestly just couldn't stand being at home and doing nothing any longer. I figured that my fever had been gone enough to keep me from infecting anyone else. I also really wanted to go to school because it was our last field hockey game of the season. Normally I play with the JV team but this week I got moved up to varsity, although I was kept from playing most of the week because of swine.

We didn't win, but I was still so proud because we played as hard as we possibly could. Then that proud feeling disappeared for all of us as it sunk in that it was the last night our team would spend together. After the game, our coach was giving us a speech about the game like she always does, but cut it short because she knew we were all trying to keep from crying. Once we got on the bus we stopped trying though, we just all held hands and let the tears fall. We're losing so much. For the past three months, field hockey has been my life. These girls are now my sisters. I realize that I can still see them now that the season is over, but it won't be the same, not spending hours with them every single day. And it can't just wait until next year either, because half the team is made of seniors who will be gone next year. I know next year's team will be great, too, but it won't fill all the gaps. This team isn't just a team, it's the greatest family I've ever been a part of (with Greek cheers and Camille's nerd voice and Jordan the angry bunny and Rupe's random hugs and smashing together in the back of the bus and Jess the greatest captain ever and singalongs and campfires and senior night and SASQUATCH! and Joy's ridiculous stories and everything and everyone). And now it's all gone.

Today I walked home from school for the first time in months, I'm so used to getting rides home from my girls and blasting the music. I hate that it can't last forever.

formspring

So, time does not exactly fly when you're sitting around not able to do anything, waiting for each hour to pass. I feel somewhat better now that I've started taking my tamiflu, but I still have a fever and am sort, um, dazed.. apparently when my mom woke me up this morning to make me take my medicine I said, "But mumma, it's Christmas!"

This is why, my 9 followers, I want you to go attack my formspring! Ask me or tell me anything. It doesn't necessarily have to be witty or deep, although I would love it a lot if they were! If you want you can just tell me how your neighbor Zachary is a lunatic or how the trees are gorgeous this week or how you just built a fort out of saltine crackers. I'll be as happy as a clam in either case. And then in a few days, when I will inevitably still be stuck at home, I'll have a post replying to them.

Waheee. Hope you're all having lovely weeks so far.

Swine '09

Yes, it's true my dears- yours truly has been diagnosed with the lovely H1N1 virus! I feel so terrible. Yesterday I started having a high fever (103 degrees!), coughing, sneeze attacks, body aches & headaches, lightheaded-ness, a sore throat, and chills. So my mom decided to take me to the doctor. They made me wear a mask in the waiting room so I wouldn't infect anyone else. I felt like such an idiot. But anyway, they tested some of my spit and told me that I have swine flu! I have to be fever-free for 48 hours before I can go back to school, and since my fever is still at 100 degrees today, I think I'll be out for the whole week.

Since I can't do anything too strenuous/anything involving standing up for more than five minutes at a time without feeling faint, my activities are limited to: Sitting and using the computer. Sitting and reading. Sitting and listening to music. Sitting and attempting to do the homework my lovely teachers have emailed me. Sitting and watching movies. Sleeping. I AM SO BORED. I WANT TO PLAY FIELD HOCKEY.

So far today all I've done is listen to the acoustic versions of songs on It's Blitz repeatedly. My favorite is this one:


Well yay, now it's 10 AM. Only 12 more hours to kill until I go back to sleep. Expect lots of posts this week, haha.