my irrational fears

So I don’t know exactly what’s bringing this post about, because it’s an awfully strange one. I suppose I’m so delirious from lack of sleep (not by choice) that I find it necessary to share some of my irrational fears. My anxiety about certain things almost rivals Aunt Josephine’s!

Without further ado, they are:

1.) San Francisco falling off into the ocean during an earthquake. I want to live there, so you can imagine why this might be a problem.

2.) Unpeeled peaches. The FUZZ, specifically. Thinking about it at all makes me twitchy, and thinking about biting into it gives me a headache!

3.) Facial hair. Especially the stupid peach fuzz some boys get before it gets all bristly. Unacceptable.

4.) Developing schizophrenia. For health class we had to do a project on a mental disorder and I chose paranoid schizophrenia. While I was researching, I was thinking, “Oh damn it. I have some of these symptoms already. So when I go off to college, I’m going to have some sort of crisis and snap! And bam, I’ll be schizophrenic.”

5.) Clogging other people’s toilets. Not that it’s ever happened, but I just think it would be so embarrassing if it did.

6.) Infinity. I looked this up actually and it’s called apeirophobia. My brain just can’t handle the concept.

Now that I’ve made myself seem like enough of a freak, tell me your irrational fears!

let's colour project

"Mere color, unspoiled by meaning, and unallied with definite form, can speak to the soul in a thousand different ways."
- Oscar Wilde

I’m alive!

HI GUYS! I am so sorry for the super long blogging break (I actually didn't realize how long I'd been gone until I looked at my blog this morning and saw that the last entry was April 10. Oops.)! And the reason for my disappearing for so long is this: Around the time I stopped posting I was studying like crazy for my AP exam, so I didn't have much free time. Then after the test was over, I just wasn't feeling like blogging much, so I didn't. I was trying to actually live my life rather than living others' through my computer screen. And it was successful, I must say, but I did start missing blogging terribly! So now I'm back, with a plan to still let my creative side show with this blog, but to balance it with you know, real life. School is winding down (I'm done June 15) so I'll have lots of energy to post!

I've done a lot since I've been away:

1.)Baked cupcakes as well as other ambitious things like lemon soufflés

2.) Danced my heart out in my ballet recital

3.) Had some very deep discussions

4.) Folded many paper cranes

I'm sure I'm forgetting a bunch of things but my point is, life is good! I want to give a big thank you to everyone who started following my blog while I was away.. you guys are super awesome for still liking my blog even though it seemed like I was never going to post again!

Hope you're all having wonderful weekends; I'm going to a picnic at my ballet teacher's house. Hooray for cucumber sandwiches!

I'm Dowd, Elwood P.

Last night I watched the movie Harvey with my mom. It's a Jimmy Stewart comedy about a man, Elwood, whose friend is Harvey, a six-foot-tall white rabbit. Except only Elwood can see Harvey, which makes his sister, Veta, and niece's plans of having social lives impossible. So, they try to put him in an institution but Veta gets checked in instead!
The idea sounds a bit strange, but I found it so charming. The moral of the story is basically that because Elwood is so genuinely sweet and sincere, all he does is spread happiness to everyone he meets so it doesn't matter that he's not exactly "normal". Just watch it, I promise you'll fall in love. It's so refreshing to watch old movies that, compared to today's, are so immaculately written and thought-provoking. The feeling you get when you watch them just can't be recreated anymore.

letters to dead people.

From this Tumblr.









Some serious, some funny, but all things I would like to say myself. Check out more here!

a very cute childrens magazine

Happy weekend! I'm officially on my spring break so I now have lots of time to be lazy and do things such as find Papier Mache magazine.











This magazine makes me wish I were five years old again. The other day I was in my ballet studio, helping the youngest class try on their costumes (they're little sunflowers!). While I was marveling over how tiny and adorable they are, I realized that that's how I looked just 10 years ago. And then sometimes, I do the reverse thing and think about how 10 years in the future, I'll be 25! Out of my house, out of college! It makes me really scared. Time is flying by so fast.

spring has sprung!

I think I already mentioned on here that I don’t like New Year’s resolutions, and that’s partly because when it’s so cold, dreary, and gray outside, I find it really hard to be hopeful. But spring on the other hand is a time for change and renewal, when all the pretty colors start to show again and the sun stays out for longer. So I thought it would be a nice idea to use my positive energy to make some spring goals. Nothing huge or life changing, but things I can realistically accomplish that will make me feel better about myself. So they are:

1.) Write some letters to far away places
2.) Have a successful garden (yesterday we planted swiss chard and peas!).
3.) Wear a lot of sundresses.
4.) Run at least three times a week.
5.) Take the metro to D.C. without my parents.
6.) Bake macaroons.
7.) Read at least 2 books per month.
8.) Open an Etsy shop.
9.) Go vegan for a day, or maybe a week.
10.) Improve my Spanish accent.
11.) Get a haircut. And not the "just a trim" type.

Do you have any spring goals you'd like to share?

WOWW #7

Hello my pretties, it's time for another Word of the Week on Wednesday (haven't done one in forever!). This week's word is:

GALLIMAUFRY- GAL·LI·MAU·FRY
1. a hodgepodge
2. jumble; a mixture of diverse things

My mom taught me this word so I can use it instead of smorgasbord, which I can't pronounce. I always say something like schmorgasborg! Anyway, this post is going to be somewhat of a gallimaufry, just because there are some things I want to talk about that can't be organized into one category.

1. I know it's expected that I apologize for not posting in ages, but I'm not going to. I'm not sorry that avoiding blogging for a week helped me get on track with my schoolwork tremendously, and let me go out last weekend. Okay? Okay.

2. I want to recreate this necklace, because I'm most definitely not paying $135 to get it from J Crew.

3. Ra Ra Riot is a really good band, it's been my favorite for a while. I will play electric cello in a band some day, I promise you.

Ra Ra Riot - Oh la - A Take Away Show from La Blogotheque on Vimeo.

4. I am deleting my cupcake blog in a few days, so if you were one of the few people who actually reads it go look at it one last time! I don't have time to make quality posts. But no worries, I shall still be baking cupcakes like these:

Okay, I’ll be having more posts soon I think. Laterrr.

if everything was everything but everything was over

So confession time. I LOVE LADY GAGA! She’s really honest and determined unlike almost everyone else in the music industry. She does and wears what she wants and doesn’t care how many people call her a freak- I think it’s so admirable to be that confident. She worked really hard to accomplish what she has and that shows how great of an artist she is.

On Sunday my best friend Syd and I put together a little tribute to LG in the form of cookies, which I first got the idea from here. The ones we came up with weren’t nearly as awesome as those, but it was really fun to decorate them while listening to The Fame and they were delicious too. Here are our results:  

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

(then we got lazy and just slapped frosting on randomly)

Tehehe. Must make more celebrity inspired cookies soon.

friday’s child

1. One thing I MUST do before I die is oh so many things, including the ones from this post. But to that list I’d like to add: start some sort of awesome project that changes lives. Not to get me publicity but to help a ton of people.

2. I would rather buy stuff off Etsy than have to deal with obnoxious shoppers and cashiers at the mall, even if my friends are with me.

3. If I could give my younger self one piece of advice it would be to stop being friends with all those “friends” who don’t really appreciate you for who you are. You’ll save years of problems if you learn to surround yourself with people that will support you rather than put you down.

4. If I won the lottery tomorrow I’d buy new cars for both my parents and fix our house. Then I’d put half in a savings account for college for me and my sister. Then I’d donate a lot to charity. Then I’d have a little shopping spree.

5. The best surprise I’ve ever gotten was deciding to shake things up and sign up for field hockey last fall, which resulted in me meeting some of the greatest people in the world and breaking a lot of the ties I’d put on myself before.

6. My biggest fault is that sometimes I try so hard to please other people that I forget to take care of myself.

7. My biggest strength is I am extremely nonjudgmental. It’s never made sense to me why some people think it’s necessary to put others down just because they’re different.

Find more Fill in the Blanks Fridays here. They’re fun, try one!

Also, here is an amazing video by Angela Kohler that I first saw on Many Little Things. I LOVE STOP MOTION.

Hope you all have lovely weekends!

positivity

So I’m out of that funk (ugh I hate that word, why did I say it?) that was going on a couple days ago. I spent some time with my friends, which made me feel better like it ALWAYS does. I’m silly; I should stop putting myself in bad moods in the first place. Hm. Anyway, since I’ve been feeling better, I’ve made three new hair clips! Headband with ribbon rose and double bows, crocheted bow, and failed yoyo bead ---> flower-ish thing clip.

What I’m about to tell you is super mega in the works, but… I’m thinking of starting an Etsy shop! I’ve been slowing building up my hair clip arsenal so I’ll have enough to open a shop by summer, maybe. But I don’t like these ones all that much actually, so they won’t be going in! Based on the types of clips I’m capable of making (like the ones here and here), do any of you have requests for clips/headbands/etc. that you’d like to see in the shop?

And hm, other good things about these past few days:

• Acing a government quiz I thought I’d fail
• going out with Dee to eat pancakes, fruit salad and chocolate cake for dinner
• deciding that when I grow up, I am going to live in France/French-speaking Canada so I can name my children Clementine, Joanie, and Oliver (but you have to say it like ole-iv-ee-yay!)

Splendiferous. Later alligators.

so the deal is

Okay, explanation of why my last decent post was like 54690 years ago: Things are rather horrible and are keeping me from being able to think up creative ideas. I wish I had a better excuse than that, such as "I found out that I'm adopted and am actually a descendant of the Danish royal family and so I went to live Copenhagen" or "I took a spur of the moment trip to volunteer in Haiti", but I don't.

So in the mean time I've managed to make myself feel slightly better by deciding that I want to be a sand artist when I grow up.

The End!

room re-do.

Sooo for my birthday, back in October, my mom said I could makeover my room as one of my presents. I’ve painted it this color already:

But I haven’t really had time to decide on a theme for the rest of the room until now! Here’s what I’m thinking. I want victorian bedding like this

And big white curtains to let the light in.

On the walls, I think I’d like either a 1. London Particulars or 2. Please Be Still print.

A PB Teen chandelier like this would also be lovely!

And some wire desk organizers would keep me sane.

Hooray, time to start shopping!

lame post alert!

Hi hi, I will begin this with the predictable apology of: so sorry I haven’t been posting or commenting much lately! I’m back at school now and apparently, the teachers have decided to punish us for not being able to go last week by giving us so so so SO much work. Add in cello lessons, ballet classes, running for president of clubs, Olympics watching, study sessions and volunteering you’ll understand why I have no time for creativity.

In the mean time, how about some music? Yay music? Yes, yay music! This is 10 Mile Stereo from the new Beach House album Teen Dream. Too good.

Okay, hopefully everything will be back to normal next week so I’ll actually be able to give you some decent posts! Hope you’re all having fabulous weeks.

like is harder than love!

Cassie's Therapy Video is a blogger tag by the wonderful Erimentha of The Little Blog of Happiness and today it was given to me by dearest Camille! Yay, I’m so excited to have finally gotten it!

The rules are as follows: fill in 12 likes, 1 love and 8 hates like Cassie in her therapy video (here). Below, the bolded things are what you MUST include. Also, please link it back to Erimentha and 3 other blogs you adore. I choose to pass it on to:

Bella of English Eccentric because she’s super imaginative and would be great at something like this. Jenna of THE GIRL WHO CRIED WOLFE because she’s just returned from a blogging hiatus and must now tell some interesting things about herself to make it up to her loyal, post hungry readers. Olivia of Olivia’s Pizzazz because she’s oh so stylish and puts well, pizzazz, into everything she does.

Abracadabra, Wow!

I like boys with artistic abilities and girls with lunchboxes.
I like putting on a just-ironed shirt.
I like having breakfast for dinner.
I like words with q's in them.
I like houses with all wood flooring.
I like eating icicles.
I like giving advice and being appreciated for it.
I like to see people smile when I give them cupcakes.
I like having my hair played with.
I like laughing at ridiculous infomercials.

I like teaching my mom words in Spanish and having her teach me French ones back.
I like going on walks in the cold and coming back with flushed cheeks.

I love being with friends and realizing that they're the right ones.

Today I am going to bake brownies and watch FRIENDS with my sister.

In some ways, I love everything.
Its less, its less of a thing to like, its less distinct, its less particular.
I like things that I like but I love everything.
There’s more choice in like cos even the worst things have things you love in them.

I don’t know what you mean about things I hate.
I hate moths.
I hate country music no matter how open minded I try to be.
I hate the word retard.
I hate scary movies.
I hate when people give me "the once over".
I hate asking for help, but in a way, I'm starting to see that I sometimes need it.
I hate having my name (Caroline) pronounced as Carolyn.
I hate when people think they should always use "I" and "whom" when in some cases it's actually correct to say "me" or "who".
I hate this, wow...

Sorry.

I. Heart. Cassie.

WOWW #6

Hello lovely readers, it’s time for the Word of the Week on Wednesday again! This week’s word is...

NEBULOUS- neb·u·lous
1. hazy, vague, indistinct, or confused
2. cloudy or cloudlike

Nebulous things this week include:
1. How I’m going to stay sane this week! Over the weekend, it snowed two and a half feet and it’s currently snowing again, which will add another foot or so. School has been canceled for the rest of this week already. And it’s nice to have a break and all, but I am seriously running out of things to do! The roads aren’t plowed and there are 45 mph winds, so I’m stuck inside. If any of you have any suggestions of how to stay occupied/ hit up my formspring I will love you forever/be eternally grateful.

2. Nebulas (I know you’re thinking well duh Kiki, nebulous nebulas? But I love nebulas so I’m going to show you some pictures of them nananana booboo)! I’ve been fascinated by astronomy since I was little and love going through the NASA archives.

3. This skirt, from Beklina. Want want want! But will not get get get because a) it’s not in my size and b) even though it’s on sale it’s still $230.

Off to… read maybe? Adios!